Chapter 1.1 On despair: deconstructing disappointment

So I have been in this place for seven years, and now I going on eight. There have been a few victories, marginal ones, but many, many, many, moments of disappointment. I say disappointment here because I was not happy about the outcome, or the expectations of these events. They were about school, or they were about life, they were about family, about being married or sometimes just about random shit.

Disappointment, to me, is failing to realize the expected outcome of a situation that is especially important. This suggests that there has to be some emotional investment in the outcome of an event for it to be disappointing. For example if some random persons child performs poorly at an activity, it is very rare that many people will be disappointed. This is chiefly because of the lack of emotional attachment of the general public to some random kid's success. On the other hand we share disappointment with our brother's or sisters failure, because of our emotional attachment.

I may seem to be deconstructing the concept of disappointment in order to find hope, but please bear with me. It is for a reason.