On porn and the enjoyment of it.

So I have been considering the many ways to make this project more about self discovery.  About getting to know me specifically, and in doing so I am taking time to think about the things that I somewhat like to indulge in.

One of the things that I spent a copious amount of time doing was searching for and viewing pornography.  The thrill of the search was not to just watch the images, after all apart from size color and shape, sexual organs are the same.  Added to that, not all of the models were aesthetically appealing, at least to me. I enjoyed searching for porn, before the the cloud, high bandwidth broadband, and dual core processors, in order to screw the man-  in order to get the most content for free.

I don't enjoy searching, looking for/at porn any more, because its now widely available, and free.

I guess in thinking about my attitude towards sex, is that I love the chase.  It could also mean that sex, or the image thereof, is more appealing to me when I have to work for it.

I wonder who has the same view.

On race

I spoke earlier about black and white and about seeing color. This gave me some incite into the way we perceive the other.

in america, the population in general is too obcessed about race. the "ethnicity" question, though vollountary, appears on most forms that one would use to apply for services, a job, healthcare and so on. they say its for records only that it will not be used against you.

so why ask?

And there is some irony in saying that you are free to decline from answering the questions, like if your race is privileged you wont say you don't belong to it.

Still i think we should see race. But we should see it as a biological reality. some thing that one cannot change.

to ask or not to ask thats the question.

On creation.

so it may seem that some things eat grass.  like sheep and goats and cows.  While some others eat fruit, like humans, for example.  well its all different.
this thought brings me back to high school biology.  ecology to be exact. that all things were created different in order to create balance in the ecosystem.
so some plants were tall, and some others were medium and some where small. and the same was for animals

now i look at humans.  we live in an ecosystem too.  but our human eco system is strained, ans so there is no harmony between us.  its sad real sad

And it came

Spring is finally here. the place is getting green again.  Green Love.

 And the plants are blooming too.

the flowers are are showing off their glorious beauty

it is so cool to be spring.

Love in any language

I was thinking about the way we speak.  I am bilingual, and possibly trilingual if i consider that i also speak house language- basically broken English, or casual English (I ain't no English teacher, so i doh fink my english is broken) And its all different.

Then i think about speech readers, like Martin Luther King Jr, and FDR, and possibly Obama, people who can say word phrases that we remember, such as "I have a Dream,...." and "There's nothing to fear but fear itself.." and "Yes we can.." 

And then there are those people who try not to be pretentious in the way they make speeches like Bill Clinton, and Sarah Pailin. 

And then I think what went wrong with the latter?